Rhodes

To tell you the least, I like it here. It's a place to stay, at least for 6 months.. I dunno what happened, but here we are, my threecoloured girlfriend and I. Vileicht können Wir hier eines gutes leben haben, hoffentlich.

I write to you in German, because we just had the most amazing days in Berlin.. We smelled the smell, but didn't go well. Asked and asked again, but noone turned a friend. All so friendely, but all Babylon...

Hopefully we'll get a taste down here! More to come, this will no longer be a boring blog. Let music enlighten your day! Listen to: "If You Wanna Be Happy" with Dr. Victor & the Rasta Rebels. Listen and smile your happiness, if not for life, for the moment.

If you don't have happiness in your life at the moment, you have my deeply felt compassion. I really know what it can be like, when shit hits the fan. It doesn't matter how bad it is, you have the chance to change it! You say no? Of course you have. But your family is the people who hold you down, and you can never change them? Well screw them then. In this world and in your life, you are numero uno. If people don't give you anything positive, and if they take more than they give, you need to leave. You need to, preferably, never see these people again. Find the people that's nice, and give them a shot. Then you'll just have to let everything slide to place. This is like gold dust, squeese to hard, it goes out your hand and into the wind, hold it tenderly, and you keep every grain. Then you can slowly add to the gold dust you have, grain by grain. In the end you will notice that your life has been golden.

Family, if not complete idiots, are the biggest support you can find, with the least work. Never hezitate to consult them, they will always help you. And nothing should delight them more than to see their help make you happy. Never be ashamed, when it comes to your family. It gives you more bad than good to hide your true self for them. Even if you're a heroinist, they will love you. From the bottom of their hearts. Just don't steal from them( ;) ), because if they can't trust you, you'll end up hurt.

If you don't have a familiy, whether they're complete assholes, or you just don't, you need to find the people who can be your family. There's tons of people out there, that could need a hand with anything. That's where you find people to love you. Just be careful that they also give you something in return. Don't think materialistic here... Anyway, my point is, everybody need someone to give them unconditional love, and if you don't have it, you need to find it. People out there can be very happy to "adopt" you in to their lifes.

My stepmother probably has a houndred children except of me, and my girfriend is one of them. She always listen and sometimes advice, just like a mother should. She got enough love for everyone to be her children or siblings (or parents). If you find this person or one who could love just you, then you got a familiy despite all!

"It doesn't matter and I don't care how bad or good your life is. I really don't." You can have been raped, molested, anything can have happened in your life, but; "You must always think this is now. This is not how it was. And it is most definite not the way it's going to be. So when sunny, prepare for rain, and when rainy, prepare for sun. Life is ups and downs. Without the downs, the ups couldn't be skyhigh"

-Pastor in a small parish in the Valley of Gudbrand in Norway.

(She is really one of the most helpful, loveable, loving and reflected people I have ever met. Without her I would not be where I am today)


"Do not think why, think why not."

-Me, and probably thousand of others.

"Something will turn up."

-Wilkins Micawber